Here we are. You can’t imagine how much I’m excited, happy, scared and so proud to feature my first single « The Shower » from my upcoming album on October. It was a long road, a long struggle and it’s not yet win. But I fight and I believe in it.
End December, 2019, I was ready to end my life. I used to think about death every single day, hopefully my lucky stars gave me a sign to not cross the red line. Today I’m alive. I spend two months in a psychiatric hospital, at Bellelay in Switzerland, trying to understand, to go on, and to treat myself…. I didn’t give up. From this journey, and with the kindly help of the hospital team, I wrote, composed and recorded couple of songs in my hospital room, between therapy and cigarettes.
Now, I’m presenting you « The Shower ».
In this song I talk about my frequent awakening in the hospital. I often did anxiety attacks. I could stay 30 minutes in the shower, sitting on the tiled floor, crying, trying to understand what happened to me. I used to have shower to wash away sins and deep suffering. Sometimes, I wanted to continue to move, other times I wanted to die. Sometimes I couldn’t remember who I was or what I’ve been. These episodes were repeated in successive morning. « Tomorrow is another day », a way to get motivated, to liberate myself from my depressive torments. To tell myself that tomorrow will be brighter despite my uncertain mental situation..